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(thought my previous photos were too small to view.)

yesterday we had real fun at cheryl’s place – GCSS gathering. yep, we had steamboat which lasted me through dinner & the best part waas saboteur. i’m pretty bad at that. i didn’t even know what i was playing, most of the time i was just having fun at being a role i am not! like when i’m a miner, i do the saboteur moves & vice-versa. so lame, YES. but i thought that was more fun. weird. heh. i don’t know man i feel ______ right now so this post seems pretty lifeless. or probably very much. there are many factors, of which some will definitely seem dumb to the majority of everyone. not just dumb, also stupid & the right word is.. PATHETIC.

last night my dad was telling me what if i don’t get into jc.. i don’t know what’s the right choice man. simple to say leave it to God, but there is alot of thinking to be done? i don’t think i want to get into poly. i don’t really want to say why, but i said i’d rather go to MI. i don’t see anything wrong with it. i was tearing about no chance to get into a local U. & how i won’t be able to earn alot of money. (this s very important!) but something shocked me when my dad said he’ll send me to England to study uni. then i’ll live with my uncle & cousins. but i felt that there are very few opportunities when i come back. & most importantly, my mother would definitely disallow me to go. she’ll DEFINITELY feel my father is spoiling me, & wasting alot of money on me (like what happened to my piano) plus getting a cert from overseas is just me running away.. i told my dad, i’ll probably just end my life if i do badly (which is really dumb & childish), but what else can i do?
i never learn from my mistakes, do i?

i think impact from youth camp is wearing off, & it sucks.

i was reading youth camp booklet & i realised cultural anorexia = homeschooling.
opinions? i’m too tired to argue.

i feel that church has something wrong with its thinking. sorry guys i’m not critsizing, but i just want to make things better. the problem is, when two peeps from the opposite genders are like good firends, everyone starts rumour-ing & suspecting. is his bein too paranoid? if the same case happens in school, people just pass off as “they are just good friends la, -.-” you know, we should really stop these suspicions of others. it’s really not very healthy.

it was a cool random outing with some churchys today at sentosa. it was cool that bryan & nicnic came too! (bring hazel next time) anyway, i felt that God was really there because despite it being a non-church related outing other than the people duh, we were in constant thought of God & prayers! it’s just way prettier when these things come more naturally. so happy about that, although there were some things that irked me alot heh. great that my dad fetched us there so we get free admission, as usual.

anyway, i have GCSS early Christmas gathering tomorrow because so many people are going Cheena mission trip. oh man, thinking of travelling from the west the east, & literally bukit batok mrt to pasir ris mrt makes me give that typical sian face. (think cheryl chern. HAHAHAAHAAAA!) it’s really east-west line man. ):

this is gross, i’m putting on alot of weight. ):

on a desperate pathetic note, (HAAHAHAHAHAA)
okay, my phone is spoilt & i’ve got no spares cos all the spares are spoilt too! i really really want to get the iphone 3GS. $518 shat. worse still my parents don’t want to sponsor me! so dear family & friends if you want to get me a christmas present, please please present it in the form of a ANGBAO, if you get what i mean. HAHAAHAHAHAHA.

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YOUTH CAMP. (:
it was really really enjoyable!

my cool group! (cheryl MIA)
bro david: it doesnt’ matter if we lose, it is how cool we look when we lose!

i’m so glad my momma actually made me go for youth camp, cos i really really enjoyed it so much better than before! at first i thought it was oing to be realy dumb or childish kinda cos it was about friendship, which is very different than before which were like: Beholding Christ, Knowing Christ, Persuing Christ etc. BUT, it was actually more applicable & easier to understand cos it was more straightforward & uncle CH preached really well too! actally what really impacted me the most was non-relavant to the theme of what bro benji shared during group discussion about being your true self. it sounds pretty cliche here, but seriously it is crucial! he told us to be ourselves at church or in fact anywhere, so that others can actually view our bad points & give us Godly counsel to improve ourselves. a church which has everyone being so good is actually a church which is in trouble because no one is perfect!

i really miss the islandwide amazing race though, /: it’s been MIA-ed for two years straight but bro mingyong said they’ll do it next year when he sent us home in his car (thanks bro my for sending us home). yay! it was really cool climbing the wall thingum at orchrd central although i slammed against the metal pin (i think) for the lobster rope & i new have a 5 by 4cm hole on my left knee & had to go to CGH A&E for stitches. don’t worry guys! it wasn’t painful when i slammed but i screamed at the horror of blood flowing down my knee. i had to take a jab at my arm in case rust entered my blood stream. the scariest part was entering the Operating Theatre ALONE. i was shivering like anything & the doctor thought i was cold, then the nurse covered me with the blanket. THIS COMES THE WORSE PART. she injected THREE jabs into my kneee & the jabs hurt like crazy, my whole body was SHAKING. (i guess the doctor woud have guessed by then my shivering & shaking was not due to the temperature.) she said it was going to be a little painful but it was NOT a little, it was BAD. but i couldn’t cry! i just clenched my fists & shook uncontrollably. it was really like those dramas man. you lie on the bed & the lights flashed above you, eith the green sheet thing. SCARY, & i’m like some crippled dudette now.

thanks alot to bro david & bro adrian for saving me on the spot, & aunty dency & sis yixiang for accompanying me to CGH for like 4 hours. & all the others for your concern!

anyway, when i went back to camp, vanessa & sandra were really entertaining la. van was super funny & sandra was really teased. (so WET!) & cheryl was like in the same group as me 3 years ago, nice deja vu! it’s really hard to catch up with her cos she’s always so busy. cheryl, remember? anyway, thanks for the ricola & the really nice melodies you play every night! haahhahaaa.

i hope God helps me focus on Him after this camp & not bee tempted as before, usually. see you on sunday!

please know,
please understand.

your absence is mutilating my soul.
i mean you, 1 year 6 months.